Best in the world

It's a term I use quite often. Those close to me know this. However, what no one knows is its meaning, especially its meaning to me. To everyone else, its a corny catchphrase that exudes confidence and or cockiness.

"Best in the world" is its truest form is how I feel. I use it to describe myself in everything I do. But that's not all. Most of the time, when I say, "Best in the World," I'm referring to you.

Lee Seung Chul - Inyeon

I open my eyes to watch you, did you really leave?

In all the looks you ever gave me, did one of them say it loved me?

Even if another love comes along, I don't think it will be so easy

It's so hard to endure, I'm waiting for a fateful kind of destiny

Through all the unforgetable painful memories

I long for you while I hate you but I

I think I loved you too much

I will regret that as much as I long to see you

If we meet again through the same kind of destiny

Those sad tear will remain deep within our hearts.

You who were born for me, I am now leaving you

I live missing the way you were, even weary and in hardship

Through all the unforgettable painful memories

I long for you while I hate you but I

I guess I just couldn't help it but love

Now the only thing I can do is watch you from afar

If we meet again during the time I still love you

The painful tears will flow for all the time I wasn't able to see you

I still do love you....................

Birthday blog

so yeah, yesterday was my birthday. nowadays, my birthday seems pretty insignificant to me. I've passed every milestone limitation: buy lotto and porn at 18, buy alcohol at 21, lower insurance and able to drive a limo at 25. to me, its just another day. another thing, my birthday last year was the best birthday i've ever had. and i didn't do anything that day. i absolutely doubt any other birthday can match the magic of that day.

So yeah, like always, I waited til the last moment to start my homework and was unmotivated to finish. But i turned it in on time. This program is getting tough and I still manage to get complacent. I really need to quit doing that. 

Sometimes I wonder if I really picked the right field of work to be in school for. Sometimes I wonder if there is a “right” field of work for me. I just need to keep plugging away and quit doubting myself and just look at the bright light at the end of the tunnel.

Tough Mudder training progress

Weekly weigh in: 192lbs

Target weight by 10/6: 180-185lbs

Weight is up from last week, but that was expected since I took the week off from training and drank a whole bunch of Dr. Peppers. Gonna get back on track today and got no more Dr. Peppers so my soda binge is over.